January 25 
Hi everyone!
These photos were taken a few days ago, but if you can see me now I’m a total mess. It’s really hard for me to think, so if you don’t mind, I’d like to share my thoughts as they come. I’m not really thinking clearly right now.
January 23, Friday 9:47 pm: My eyes are super puffy from crying and I miss my little Sammie so much! A friend of mine sent me flowers to wish me well as I was recovering from a health issue. I placed the flowers far away from Sammie, but this morning I saw spots of yellow on his face and legs. I knew immediately it was the lilies. I called our vet right away and rushed him to the emergency pet hospital, because ingestion of lilies can cause severe kidney failure in cats. Sammie is currently being placed on IV fluids and treated for poison. He needs to stay in the hospital for 48 hours.
January 24, Saturday 3:23 am: Can’t sleep. Editing Sammie pictures. Walking around, cleaning up the loft again. Every time I find a cat toy or see his cat beds, I fall apart.
January 24, Saturday 10:08 am: In addition to my cleaning, I hired a cleaning crew to triple check and clean my loft again to make sure that there are no signs of pollen or anything that might be remotely poisonous to cats.
January 24, Saturday 3:30 pm: Visited Sammie in the hospital. Stayed with him for as long as possible before they took him away for more treatments. The latter half of the visit made it very hard to leave. All he wanted to do was to nap and cuddle on my lap. Spoke with the veterinarian and she shared that he’s doing well. His blood work and his kidneys are normal. But we’re not in the clear yet. The poison might still show after discharge and I have to bring him back in a week for more blood work. If he throws up or becomes lethargic after being released, it’s a very very bad sign. I plan to monitor him like a hawk for the next few weeks.
The first month Sammie was with me, I experienced pretty bad separation anxiety. In the shower or before bed, I would cry at the thought of losing him. It was very overwhelming. Being in the hospital and signing standard waivers that mentioned resuscitation if his heart stops was extremely close to my nightmare. I needed help finishing the forms because I couldn’t stop crying.
The hospital will call me later today for more updates and hopefully they’ll discharge him tonight. I just want him home and heathy again.
Thank you so much for reading! Wishing endless happiness and abundant health to you and all your family members, four-legged ones included!
:: Outfit ::
Top :: Intermix vest (old, similar here), J Brand top (also adore this design)
Bottom :: ASOS
Shoes :: Alexander Wang (old)
Bag :: Chanel
Accessories :: Cartier watch, Wendy’s Lookbook X Tacori Promise Bracelet,
Wanderlust + Co ring
